My 20-year high school reunion is coming up next month, and I am becoming frustrated with it. I'm not having a problem at all with the fact that we became adults 20 years ago, making us dangerously close to being old. I'm not having a problem feeling like I don't measure up to my classmates. Life is actually looking pretty decent for me right now. I'm not having a problem with my body image. I've seen pictures of some of the people I went to school with. I'm not doing terrible in that area, either.
What I AM having a problem with is that I STILL just don't fit in. Our reunion committee once again picked a place that is out of my league, in a price range I can't afford. It's Homecoming and Prom all over again. Instead of having a decently priced venue that could be semi-formal, this is definitely a "go all out" type of event. I would have to buy a special dress just for the night. The tickets, per person, are $100. Wow! I hope the people I graduated with are doing better financially than I am.
What would be wrong with a pot-luck picnic at a near-by park? We could move our reunion from July to October so the weather would be more friendly for that type of gathering. What about decorating the gym and having a buffet meal? I know, I sound old fashioned and perhaps even stodgy. Just call me Maxine! Seriously, though, do we always have to be showing off?
When I posed this question to the reunion committee they said that the venue was the best bang for the buck. Somehow I just don't believe that a high-end hotel in one of the most expensive cities around us is really the most cost-effective choice. My class wouldn't know how to do a pot luck if it bit them in the.... well, you get the picture.
The funny thing is that I recognize the names of the people I graduated with, but beyond that I really don't know any of these people. I was in a graduating class of 833 students. Of those, I am connected with the ones I remember best through Facebook or email. Sure, there are a couple I would like to find, and there are a few I would really like to see. For the most part, though, those people who I'm not connected with are just memories that don't need to be sparked anyway.
I'm not a big drinker, I don't dance at all, and the music would probably be too loud to carry a conversation. Or maybe I'm just getting hard of hearing. Either way I don't think the atmosphere sounds enjoyable. And I certainly don't want to pay $200 to sit around and make small talk with people I'm not sure I remember. I'd much rather bring our families to a park and give us something genuine to talk about. Maybe I'm just a big party pooper. I never was into the big celebrations and gatherings.