First I want to apologize for yet another post about being sick and how I wish I wasn't. Secondly I would like to thank those of you who have stuck by me and listened to my whining and complaining. But, I seriously expected to be so much more improved by now that I am just losing my positiveness.
I do have a doctor's appointment this evening and will be checking on my latest symptoms. Unfortunately some of my previous ones have come back (the headaches), some never went away (the foot pain), and some new ones have been popping up (pain traveling UP my leg that feels like my leg has been broken). The pain is grating on me to the point that I burst into tears over REALLY stupid stuff- like seeing a runner working out on my way to work. I am SO grateful to be working, but that is really the only thing I have the energy for. In the evenings I lay on the couch and watch TV- or I go to bed at the exact same time the girls do.
Anyway... if I could go back in time I would go back to the month and week before I got sick. That week I had my best run ever. I also went to the gym and did a spin class. That was so much fun! But, I think I would chill out and not do these exercises. I sometimes wonder if one of those didn't kick off this stupid, stupid illness, or injury, or whatever the heck it is. I know that's silly... I know I didn't do anything to cause this. At the same time, I just can't stop from thinking that I could have done something differently. Maybe I'd just lay around on the couch and watch TV. I could handle that. I'm kind of tired of doing that now, but I could do it for a week.