I'm linking this post up to Time Travel Tuesday. This is where we dust off an old post and bring it back into the spotlight for just a little while. I hope you enjoy this post- one where I share some raw emotion, then offer you- the reader- a challenge. Go ahead, give it a try!
I heard Garth Brook's "The Dance" in the car yesterday, and it really made me think. It made me want to cry, too, but everything makes me want to cry anymore. Take a listen, then scroll down to hear my thoughts.
Through this whole ordeal with the shingles and nerve damage I've said that the worst part is that I will not get to teach next year. For three solid years I've worked toward the very moment that I get to walk into a classroom and welcome my first group of students. Because of the fact that I cannot work right now, I will not see that dream come true... at least not this coming school year.
I've also said that I will never regret that I earned that degree. If I never use it for one day in a classroom, it doesn't matter. No one can take that away from me. The experience proved to me that I can follow through with tough tasks. I can take life piece by piece and work on what is important NOW while still looking to the future. It's interesting how those very lessons are the ones that I am calling on now to get through these days with my stupid disease.
I danced with my dream, I held it in my hand, and I was on top of the world. IF I never get there again, I will forever be grateful for the opportunities I DID have. Our lives truly are "better left to chance." The pain is enough to bring me to my knees in grief, but I will always have the memories of my student teaching, volunteering, and substitute teaching days. Don't ever think that just because something hurts it's not worth it. EVERY minute of the experience that led to my teaching certificate was worth it.
I have a challenge for you: Go out there and dance. Find something that you've really wanted to do and give it a try. It could be a craft project (I've wanted to learn to knit), it could be an exercise (Zumba is FANTASTIC- don't worry about not being perfect), or it could be a class you've wanted to take (check your local parks and rec for affordable courses). It doesn't matter what it is- go out there and give life a chance. Don't hold back because you fear what might be. Dance today because we don't know what tomorrow will bring.
If you decide to take the challenge, please leave me a comment so others may be inspired, too.